The plan had been you see to keep myself busy this weekend to keep my mind of the tinge of anxiety still there at the back of my mind. This is worse kind of anxiety for me, that little bit at the back of my mind, it seems it at times like these I seem to have more panic attacks than others.
As I mentioned I had two while at the surgeon’s office on Wednesday, didn’t need to worry about this today however, no today was one of those days that happens every so often and can be a real pain quite literally. Today was what both my mum and I refer to as a ‘Bad Back Day’
These days are always started the same as usual, I awake quite suddenly with a sharp pain somewhere in either my back or shoulders, today it was my shoulders. I wasn’t even sure if mum was still home this morning when I awoke the second time, I had earlier in the morning due to it being Saturday chosen to roll back over once I awakened the first time and catch a few more zz’s, at this point there was a dull numb in my shoulders which I chose to ignore.
When I awoke the second time my left shoulder, the side I had been sleeping upon, was in a fair amount of pain, on a scale of 1 to 10 this morning it would have been between a 7 and an 8.5, as I said I wasn’t sure if mum was home so I reached for my mobile phone which I always keep by my bedside when I sleep and I dialled her mobile number.
She picked up fairly quickly and I told her I couldn’t move and needed help, she was soon in my room which I was very relieved for knowing she was not out and helped me up, after asking if I was ok and I telling her yeah just feeling very stiff, I turned to my cat sitting in my bed who was looking at me with worry like he always does, I smiled and I swear his volume of purring went up tenfold.
I spent the morning sitting in bed after that playing animal crossing: Let’s go to the city! (I have to make the note to myself now to check my game after posting this, I want to know if I won today’s bug catching contest)
After lunch which was a turkey wrap from subway yum! I had a shower and spent a large portion of today playing my DSi between three games, Chessmaster, Pokémon Pearl Version and Kingdom Hearts Decoded. I also spent a fair amount of time with my niece today though she seemed to enjoy pressing my boundaries, she insisted on feeding me McDonald nuggets yuk!
The evening was spent thus far with my mum at my sisters again as I was doing them a favour and staying at the house with my sleeping niece as my mum picked my sister at work, for the rest of the evening, I look forward to spending it with good company and reading fanfics accompanied by a hot cup of tea every few hours before I head to bed.
Even though it was painful start and though that pain is still there slowly numbing I have tried my hardest to make good of this bad situation, my mum has taught me through this hard time to take every day as it comes and I am learning more from my mum more and more each day it seems.
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