Bleh...

Date 16/09/2011
Time 11:47pm

Woke up earlier than expected this morning, feeling well the best way to descibe it would have been feverish. My stomach felt heavy and my head was spinning with anxiety of coming to grips with the news I recieved in a half asleep stuper yesterday.

Truth be told i could hardly sleep Wednseday night, my mind just would not settle, it has been rare these last few years visiting the plastic surgeons, that i had ever been given good news, so I suppose I had out phsyced myself into expecting bad news. It was a good thing mum was with me yesterday she got all the info we needed. Though I wish I hadnt had two panic attacks while at the surgeons office yesterday.

When I woke this mornign my anxiety levels were still pretty high which most likely explained the fever I thought I felt and the vomit going down the drain during my first shower for the day. I spent alot of time today just sitting in thought and letting the news of everything just was over me.

Truth be told I dont know how to feel, yes this is good news but my mind isn't at the ease I was hoping it was at, I'm overloaded with infomation by this point perhaps even wishing I had the bliss that is ignorance in this point of time.

The rest of the day after my shower this morning went fairly peaceful, I spent the morning sitting in bed, my cat cuddled into my side snoring most likely because of the rain outside. He sat there snoring while i played animal crossing before falling into the routine of watching doctor phil at lunch time.

During the adds i made myself some lunch just a light salad the way my stomach was feeling i wouldnt be able to each much more that was accumpanied by a glass of water.

I did get a most decatant surprise when i came online earlier in the afternoon, a fellow orochimaru fan on a yaoi art site had taken my request for a certain pice of artwork it most certainly did not disapoint, most definatly the highlight of the day.

In the evening I visited my sister and neice with my mum and was able to sit in the bathtub at her house and soak while reading a really bad vampire paper back novel i cannot seem to put down.

All and all not an overly exciting or bad day, I could have gone without the anxiety, hoping to keep myself busy over the weekend.