A new Beginning

Date: 16/09/2011

Time: 2:25am

In what is now just under seven weeks away, something very significant is happening in my life. But even though this journey to have this done will soon be at its end and  allow this young adult to move forward with her life, I am the kind of person who has always believed that what happens on ones journey is just as important as the end result.

I have learned a lot about myself through this eight year journey. Let’s face it no person is the same at the age of 24 as they were at 16. In the years since that first initial consultation with the many surgeons I have seen over years many things good and bad have happened.

I have known what it is to be loved by someone who is not related by blood for the first time, though this has very little to do with what is happening now, knowing I have this person by my side in spirit and heart is enough to put my worries at ease, even if it is for a few hours each night.

I have also learned to hate and feel deep embarrassment, one such embarrassment happened in a hospital where a doctor’s appointment ended with group after group of student doctors come in and scrutinise a part of me I am not comfortable for the world to see.

So I hear you ask what kind of journey has brought on these thoughts and even this blog? At the age of 16 I started getting sever pain in my lower back and shoulders. On a bad day this pain would fill like someone running a hot blade down and up my spine before forcing it into the base of my neck and shoulders. My mum took me to our general practitioner to help us find out what was wrong with me. Then the doctor told us, the pain I was going through was being caused by excess weight on my back and shoulders.

I was very skinny when I was younger but there was one thing other than being skinny I had. I had a pair of DD breasts. Since then my breasts continued growing until they finally stopped at 22 at a J cup.

In seven weeks’ time I will be going in for the surgery I have been needing to reduce them since I was 16, throughout this blog I will be making periodical updates of what’s happening, my feelings towards the upcoming surgery and sharing parts of my journey, in hopes of letting others out there know that when it comes to breasts or if you prefer boobs, are not always better bigger.